REDNECK DIVA WON AN OKIE BLOG AWARD!!!

If you want details you'll have to go here! Congratulations Diva, see we keep telling you how funny you are!!
I want to go to the Okie Blog thing next year, it sounds so fun!!

And yes there may be pictures.

That last post was well. . . . . . . let’s just leave it at that. I will tell you the weekend got SO much better than that night/morning/day!

I called my girlfriend, we’ve been friends since we were kids, she knows me inside out as I know her the same, that kind of friendship that you can go months without talking and get right back into whatever is going on with the other just as if you’ve talked daily. So anyway, I called her up to see if she was working over the weekend and she wasn’t (yeah) so I said “Let’s go out?” she said “ok, what’s wrong? What’s going on?” I replied, “Loads, I need to get drunk.” She laughs and says, “I’ll pick you up at 8 tomorrow night”. Or at least that was the gist of the conversation.

So my mom and her fiancée came over to watch the hoodlums for me. Katlynn said something like “bye mom, don’t you all be driving drunk!” which I found hysterical due to the fact that I never mentioned where we were going, why we were going out, anything about alcohol and the last time I drank anything was ages ago and it was like a single glass of wine! Kids, what’re you to do.

Well we were off. We drove around for a little while dishing and trying to figure out where we should go. Once we had sufficiently realized that it had been so long since we had been anywhere that we had no idea where to go we ended up at the Stables. It wasn’t crowded, we found to stools in the corner and we ordered Tequila Sunrises, and oh how it went from there! We ended up seeing friends we used to run with, oh so long ago! And we all went to Quapaw and once there it seemed there was a high school reunion or something. I hadn’t seen that many people from those days in years! It was so great. We drank WAY TOO MANY of those Tequila Sunrises and something called a yeager bomb? (oh neither of us drove anywhere) I’ll leave the bar part with, we were there when they clicked the lights on! Couldn’t even begin to tell you the last time I said that! Then there was this cycle I slide on to the back of (yes I knew the driver, hadn’t seen him in years, but it was just like I’d seen him yesterday, -and get your mind out of the gutter, he’s always been a friend in fact back in the day he got me home safely and took care of me on more than one occasion!) and oh, I forgot how good it feels to be on the back of a bike like that! And for all you worriers out there, he hadn’t been drinking, he had been in the casino part and we happened to run into him when we were leaving, so I was safe. Anyway, it was a great time, my girlfriend was probably having major flashbacks when she looked out the truck window and saw me getting on the back of that bike!! Lol Yeah, I didn’t used to be so innocent!!(quit. Laughing.) It wasn’t the first time in our friendship that we were somewhere and I ended up on the back of bike waving! Oops! Anyway the truck she was in was going to the same place the bike I was riding was going so it worked out, and she wasn’t even mad at me. Although, by 4am her husband was ready to skin us both! Yeah, he had stayed home w/the kids. Apparently, he’s a saint and didn’t actually have her things packed when she finally got home on Sunday! He did however, stipulate that if we are to go out together again, he is coming with us and being the driver so as to assure we don’t well, have a repeat! Saint I tell ya! Yeah, well by the time we got to my driveway it was about 4am, we sat in her truck talking about how she couldn’t drive home and I couldn’t drive her and her husband well, as you can imagine he wasn’t coming to get her! And we were listening to the radio and apparently fell asleep, oops! When the serious thunder started at DAYLIGHT! We woke up to find her battery was DEAD, due to the radio being left on! So we rolled out of the truck and I do mean rolled and stumbled to my back door. As I walked into the dining room I come face to face with my 11 year old that is up looking out her window because of the thunder. Yep, busted looking like I was just getting home at 6am, ummm yeah still drunk cuz all I could do with this realization was laugh. My friend and I came to the conclusion that she was stuck so I laid down about the time baby divinity wanted a bottle (which I gave him) and then Katlynn took him in the living room w/my mom and I effectively passed out across my bed, fully dressed. I did however take my boots off first! When I awoke later, I found my friend out cold on kiersty’s bed!

I was one tired girl come Sunday. Luckily I apparently got drunk enough that I bypassed the whole headache/puke/crappy hangover! How I managed that I’ll never know because at 10:30 Sunday morning I was still quite tipsy and just for future reference a Mexican frozen dinner at this point rocked!! If that helps tell you what state I was in!

My friend and I decided we’re too old for that kind of a night and should really rethink it if we ever decide to try that again!! I do, however, owe her because I so completely needed that night out!

And for the record, I did nothing bad. Ok, except having way too many drinks! And on a final note, that I actually didn’t realize until the next day, I didn’t buy any of my drinks all night and yet I was never without a drink!! Aren’t those the best drinking nights!!

It is what it is....

Life anyway you look at it. So many people try and make things into something they aren't. Most of the time I keep this way I see things to myself, well because it pretty much makes me sound like a real -itch(yeah it rhymes w/witch), but I've decided I'm 33 years old and if I sound like a -itch maybe I am and at this age I should just accept it and go on. Back to my point, because I'm fairly certain I have one. My point - it is what it is - life in general. Including work, relationships, raising kids, all of it. There are so many situations that people go into knowing what it is, but then get themselves all twisted sideways because instead just letting it be what it was they tried to turn it into something else. It is especially hard to deal with when you are willing to let something be what it is and not expecting anything other than that, yet someone else is convinced that you will try and turn it into something other than what it is and so they act weird.

I know clear as mud.

Anyway, I would just like for more people to just let things be what they are.

On to other topics. Like say the FLOOD that I had to clean up in my bathroom last night, oh I don't know around 1:30 AM! Kiersten had come in and crawled into bed with me and it woke me up. I got up and went in to get a drink and heard this strange noise coming from the bathroom, I step in there only to realize that my feet are in 2" of WATER! and that there is a spray equivalent to a GARDEN SPRINKLER shooting out of the pvc pipe that connects the water to our clawfoot bathtub. Let me remind you at this point, it is 1:30 AM and I'm still about 3/4 of the way asleep. I finally adjust my eyes and realize that no I'm awake and there really is a waterpark in my bathroom, and so I find the knobs to turn off the water flow to the tub and the sprinkler finally stops. I assess the mess only to realize that at some point one of my wonderfully helpful daughters had dumped out a very large laundry basket full of dirty clothes onto the floor in front of the washer and the youngest girl felt her comforter needed washed and put it in the floor in front of the washer so not only did I have water everywhere but I also had sopping wet laundry and comforter! Yeah, I'm sure you can insert the not so nice language that was spewing out of my mouth at this point. I did the only rationale thing that i could do at that time of the morning, I put all the wet clothes and comforter in the TUB (remember all water to tub was off) used the remaining clean (dry) towels, clean because the dirty ones were WET, to mop up the floor - oh and this took for flippin' ever and I'm sure there is standing water under the washer and dryer, but there was no way in haiti's that I was pulling them out to mop up the water right then!

Ok, well as you can see my day started very early in a very sh--ty way and well once at work it just plummeted done the flippin' mountain at full speed! But I'll save you from the details and just say that I am a probation and parole officer so it's expected I will run into pain in the ass people, but my gosh by 9 am I was ready to knock the livin' crap out of someone, pain in the ass does not begin to describe these people!

And with that, I will stop typing so as not to have a come apart while thinking about it......

Here's hoping the weekend is a huge improvement over this day!

A lot more than you probably wanted to know.

I have a lot of personal stuff going on right now so if I don’t make sense or seem vague please forgive me.

My marriage has, after a long time of working on it and trying to figure it out, come to its last days. He hasn’t fully accepted it yet, but I’m done. There are numerous reasons, reasons that only my closest friends will know but I in no way have taken this lightly and have done everything possible to fix it if for no other reason than we have 3 kids. It has been over for a long time, however, accepting it cannot be fixed was hard.

I am worried about how it will affect the kids, especially baby divinity since he’s so young and won’t know living w/both parents as a family. I can only do what I can do, I just hope it doesn’t permanently damage them.

I’m just ready to move on with my life and I don’t want the kids thinking that the way our marriage has been is how marriage should be. I don’t want to go into detail, for obvious reasons.

Oddly enough I’m fine. I’m ready for the whole thing to be done and for him to accept this is where I am at and he cannot change that. I don’t want to be mean, or fight, or any of the usual things that happen in this situation, I just want to put it behind us and figure out how to go from here.

And well, now that I’ve just put it all out there I had better get back to work.